A reflection....

That picture was taken when addie was a week old. I cannot believe that she was ever that small, small enough to fit so snuggly in my arms.

Tomorrow is her birthday, her first birthday....so you believe that? I feel like just yesterday I brought her home, then she was sitting up on her own, she smiled for the first time, said dada for the first time, or the first time she crawled, the first time she said uh oh, the first time she giggled, or looked suprised, got excited. It has been a year of amazing firsts, a year that seemed to go so slow and yet go so fast.

The first year has taught me more than I could ever imagine. It has taught me how to love beyond imagination, I never thought there was such a love like that. God has blessed me with such a wonderful daughter and family. I am so blessed to have her and I am so excited to see whats next for her, there is so much that she has ahead for her I am so excited to see her walk for the first time and I am excited to really hear her start talking and making sentences and I am so excited for her to grow hair!!!!

Happy Birthday to my Addie Grace...Mommy loves you!

Addie's first birthday party

Addies first birthday party was great! She seemed to have a great time! I was hoping for a disaster with that cake and her wear the whole thing but as you can see from the photo she was very delicate about eating it. She no more than looked like a bald santa. lol.

It was fun though, she gots lots of presents and enjoyed the time with her friends! Its hard to see my baby turn one but that just means Ineed to convince Jeremy for number 2...

Friday is her actual birthday and we are gonna do dinner and stuff with family and jeremy and I will do our presents with her then.

Something about having a one year old makes me feel old...lol

Thoughts for Fathers Day

This fathers day brings mixed emotions....I feel joy and happiness for jeremy who is celebrating his very first fathers day, celebrating what a great dad he is and all he does for our family. Yet there is that part of me that is hurting knowing that this is the first fathers day without my dad.

Fathers day is a chance for us to honor those dads who are with us and those who are not, those dads who stepped up and do all the things that make them dad, and in my dads case that meant letting me do his hair...lol....It is a chance for us to honor their memory and their lives, honor the dreams they have for their children and for their families. Fathers day is so important because we can create silly home projects, that just this one time of year will bring tears to every dads eye.

Most Dads want to look back on their lives and see that their children are better people because of who they where, that they taught them how to be adults, parents, friends. They want to look back and know that when their gone they will be missed.

I did not know how I would want to honor my dad for fathers day, and then I got to thinking....I already do everyday. His greatest hope for me was happiness, and love. I sucssesfully achevied both. My fathers memory lives on in a safe place...in my heart. I miss him, I miss his laugh, his smile, his hugs that cured every hurt and tear, I miss his support and hearing him say its ok......sometimes you never truely know what people mean to you until you have to learn to live without them.

So Happy Fathers Day to my Hubby, you truely are the best dad, addie grace is very blessed to have a dad like you, I hope that you always cherish and treasure every moment with her because I know that she will. Happy Fathers Day!

Addie's first birthday present

She looks like she was drinking and driving and I guess if you count her juice she was....lol....She got her first birthday present yesterday....I could have cried, I cannot believe in two weeks my baby will be one! That is so crazy to me, I feel like yesterday I was in labor and she was born. They say they grow up so fast and I am afraid to blink, like I will miss it all if I do.....

She got a little car, precious! She has no clue what to do with it but none less it is still precious to see her one it. She wouldnt rip the paper off of it, jeremys aunt had to help her. Have to get her practicing before her party!

Our Stray

This is our new stray cat and yes that cat would be climbing the screen on my back door! It has decided that it wants to move in with us... We fed it, yes I know what you are thinking if you feed it, it will never leave, but its not like I could let the cat goo hungry....Auntie laura to the rescue, she brought us cat food. He is very sweet and very cute...

Summer time....

I really hate summer.....

I have plenty of reasons besides heat and I think that the one that gets to me the most is all the bugs....There is a massive spider that has taken up residence in our front bushes, jeremy says I am over reacting but it is one of those spiders that is so big that you feel like it is staring at you as you walk to the car plotting ways to kill you....(Ok so maybe I am over reacting)

That spider is not the only friend that has taken up residence in our front yard...We now have a little stray cat living in our bushes, it has been there since sunday and every time you open the door it peeks its little head out and meows at you like it wants to come inside (could you imagine with daisy, HA!) Well anyway, this cat is incredibly smart, it has figured out where jeremy comes in at night when he comes home from work and that stinkin cat was sitting there next to the back door when I got back from the store this morning. It layed on our porch mat, had a bath, took a little nap, and then finally gave up I guess going back to his place in the bushes.

Well gonna go get crafty....